Tag Archive: Mental Health


TUESDAY’S ASPIE UPDATE


OK so normally Jacob goes to counseling. But apparently for the past 3 weeks his counselor Ms Christel has had emergencies to include a death in the family. Well it has defiantly been blatantly obvious that Jacob has not been to see her. He went from having pretty near perfect weeks to attacking me just because I was on the telephone.

Well luckily he had an appointment on Friday with Dr Smith, his psychiatrist. She took one look at him and said umm he’s not sleeping is he?! So after he broke down and told her that he didn’t think he needed to sleep and that he was having issues with his anger again, she changed up his meds. So now we are in the process of weaning him off his Clonidine and switching it for the new meds … Mirtazapine. So we are taking him from a low dose blood pressure medicine to a anti-depressant. Needless to say I have slept with him the past few days just to make sure all is well with my baby.

Oh and while we were there on Friday I was able to make a new appointment with Christel and after 3 weeks he got to see his arch-enemy today! He hates her because he knows she is right and that she has the power to put a stop to what he is doing. After talking with him alone for about 15 minutes today she quickly called me back to set things straight. He thought he had the wool pulled over her eyes and was trying to tell her that he was acting out because he was jealous of Abi and that since she has started back that we are ignoring him and just giving her all our attention! Uh nope and he knows that is a lie. I set her straight them she set him straight. She said that he was to get over it and get it together.. She’s not playing with him any more.

We shall see how this works… Pray people pray!

Love ya!

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WORD UP WEDNESDAY….


This weeks Word is….

 SPEECHLESS

OR NO LONGER SILENT, TALKING, WOOHOO, YIPPEE, PRAISE GOD, HALLELUJAH, YAY

In other words Abi started talking today! After almost 3 months of total silence she burst open today and overcome her fears. There are no words to describe how this Mama feels right now!

Thank you Jesus, you still answer prayers!

There will be much more on this tomorrow, right now I have to go talk to my baby girl. Love you!


I have actually had a binder (let me rephrase that…several binders) with my routines and such for several years. Do I use it (them) on occasion but for the most part no. So on Monday I began the mission of figuring out why I didn’t use my binder(s) and how to change that.

First and foremost thought was…I HAD WAY TOO MANY!

I counted 7 but I am pretty sure some were playing double duty!

Secondly that although I am an advocate of routines and schedules and am always revamping my own, they don’t do you much good if you don’t use them. And well most of these binders were filled with routines, schedules and to-do lists that I never even looked at. It was all just too overwhelming. I had to minimize and reorganize. So I made a mess!

I spent pretty much an entire day, just going through each binder, pulling out what I wanted/needed and trashing the rest.

After the big binder de-clutter I was able to downsize from 7 unused binders to 3 I’d better start using binders and 1 folder!

 These are from left to right 1. My Cub Scout binder 2. My F.A.C.E binder (the one I am really iffy about!) 3. My to do folder and 4. My L.M.B (Life Management Binder)

Obviously the Cub Scout binder holds my lesson plans and curriculum. I also have a Cub Scout section in my L.M.B which I place my attendance records and Scout info. The F.A.C.E Binder is a printable control journal on Flylady.net that is supposed to help you gain control of your finances. Honestly I have never opened it so I can’t say whether it works or not…. The to do folder is self explanatory, if I need to do something (fill out a form, sign something, fix something, etc.) and can’t do it right away, it goes into the folder. Each night I do my best to work through the folder so that t is empty in the morning.

Then there is the Life Management Binder or the L.M.B as I call it. This is the binder at the front and center of my life. It has several sections, each section covers a different aspect of my life that could use better management…

First in the L.M.B is the calendars section…. In this section I have included all my calendars. The school calendar, cub scout calendar, my week at a glance calendar, and any other calendars I happen to get in the course of my merry ol life..

Next is the Schedules and Routines section… In this section I have included everyone’s daily schedules, my weekly and monthly schedules and everyone’s daily routines.

Up next is my Housekeeping section… this section is all about cleaning.  I have my weekly cleaning lists, hot spot lists and everyone’s daily chores listed out as well as the house rules and media rules.

Next up is My Finances section… all money related things go here. Bill pay passwords and monthly due dates of the regular bills are listed out. I also have included a subsection here called Menu Planning where I keep all my menu calendars and such.

Then there is the School section… Here I have placed all the school info I need to hang on to. Extra car tag, handbook. Teacher notes, medicine forms and ect.

My Scout section is next. Here I plan to place my attendance forms and parent contact info as well as lesson plans and outing info.

The next 4 sections are dedicated to each family members medical info. Medicines we take. Doctor note etc. with 2 special needs children and a special needs spouse I do not use these sections nearly enough!

After the medical sections comes the sections on my little business Crocheted Creations in which I put product info and ideas. As well as sell info and other business related stuff. Then there is a little section just for this blog, where  I put all my blog info and ideas.

And since I was running out of tab dividers and ideas for tabs the next section is labeled other! In this section I have placed everything else that I think belongs in my L.M.B but couldn’t be placed in a section alone.

Then I have my contacts section in which I plan to place everyone’s address email and phone number that I actually use. It will make filling out invites thank you’s and Christmas cards much quicker!

Then Last but not least is my Inspirational section. Here I have placed a few of my favorite poems and such. Things that I can read for a quick pick me up when my spirits are down.

And there you have it. I apologize that this has turned out to be so long. and for those of you who have waited I actually started this post on August 6 and today is August 14 (my Daddy’s birthday!) I do plan to do a follow-up of this post and include all my routines and possibly my schedules and give you a peak of my kids companion binders which they call their Kids Constitution! But that is another day for now I am exhausted and sick. Goodnight!


This morning school started back for my kids, therefore my morning walks started back. Being Monday morning, one of the first things I noticed as I started up the incredibly steep hill outside my door was that the garbage man had already come and gone leaving behind the hideous smell of week old trash.  As I continued up the hill holding my breath I remembered that just a few months ago, just as Spring was bursting free, God had very bluntly let me know that garbage men are his most prized creations.

Now I know what you are thinking, you are thinking that I must have held my breath too long and killed some brain cells, because there is no way that a stinky old garbage man is a prized creation of God. LOL I know I know, I said the same thing, but just hear me out.

I had a really rough winter. Stuck in the house with 3 kids for ten days straight at one point. With all the ice and snow and no way out I slipped into a depression. My days and mind were filled with gloom and just drug on and on. Then Spring came, flowers bloomed, birds sang but I still felt like the world was coming to an end (nothing to do with the 5/21 rapture, God will come back when he is ready!). I was fed up I needed a break and I deserved to be happy too! So off I went up that hill, making every effort to take in the beauty of the blooming flowers and singing birds. I even stopped to watch a couple of squirrls chase each other up and down the trees.  Then I heard it, the garbage truck was coming. Oh no I thought I’m gonna end up walking behind it. Just great here I am trying to take in the site and lift my spirits and I end up having to deal with this.

On I walked. I was on a mission and that filth was not going to stop me from finding my joy! I actually made it half way through the neighborhood before I met up with that thing that was set to ruin my day! I had already stopped looking for flowers and instead kept track of which houses he would be stopping at. Then I saw it, coming up was a house that the truck hadn’t got to yet and they had forgotten their bins at the side of their house. Oh well poor folks gonna have to deal with all that trash for a whole nother week was my thought because hey this trash company lets it be no secret that if you don’t have your bin roadside they will not come back to get it. So on I walked shaking my head thinking what would I do if I were in that situation. I think I would have to take all my trash to the dump myself cause there is no way we could keep up with two weeks, impossible. I passed the truck with a sigh of relief, I could actually breath now, the smell wasn’t so bad.

Then something caught my ear, he was stopping, but why I know I saw the bin at the side of the house. So I stopped and turned to look and about fainted. What I saw not only took me by surprise it make me pray to God!

As I turned and the truck came to a complete stop,the driver door swung open. What in the world was my thought. Then out jump a stout middle aged bald guy, whom I think was a little over dressed to be a garbage man. Um ok, what is he doing?!  He proceeded to walk to the side of the house roll 2 overly stuffed bins roadside, climb back into his truck, use the mechanical arm to empty the bins, get back out of the truck and return the bins back to the side of the house.

Lord what just happened, why on Earth did you let me witness this. What just happened?! Then I knew. Out of all of his wonderful creations, mankind is his most prized. Not the Eagles, not the roses, those are here for our enjoyment. The most beautiful pieces of nature are here  for the pleasure of his most prized, the one he cared enough to make in his own image, the stinky old garbage man!

Now I still don’t like taking my morning walks while the garbage truck is making it’s rounds but now I don’t see the man driving that big nasty truck the same. Instead of causing me grief and making me angry, it brings me joy and lifts my spirits!

The Silent Princess


August 2011 it will be 5 years that we have been blessed with our little princess.  I remember like yesterday finding out that I was pregnant, the joy, the fear, and the unknown. I remember crying and not knowing why. Then just 5 months later I found myself crying again, this time I knew why. My prenatal doctor had called with horrific news. Routine tests I had preformed just a few days earlier showed that my baby girl would likely never see the light of day. They said she had some birth defect that was “incompatible with life”.

But you see I serve a God that is bigger than any birth defect and he determines what is compatible with life, not some man-made test or doctor with many degrees. And late on very hot August afternoon, a beautiful little 6 pound 11 ounce baby girl entered this world.  She immediately captured the heart of everyone around. She was perfect. No birth defects, no abnormalities, an angel in disguise.

It didn’t take very long for anyone to realize that this little girl had the world in her hands and life at her feet. Anything she wanted she got. No one dare tell her no. She set the rules in this world in which she lived. She was very vibrant and full of energy. She met no stranger. She loved everyone, although shy at times she had the will power and strength of a lioness. She could do anything she set her mind to.

Now I find myself crying again. you see we’ve always knew she was a bit shy, and would take a bit to warm up to some people. But recently that shyness has escalated into something bigger. She went the entire school year without even whispering a single word to her teachers or class mates. And today marks the 18th day since my little princess has spoken a single word to anyone. It has been 18 days since I’ve heard her whisper Mama I love you!

This morning we went and talked to a childhood counselor. And after an hour of a million and one questions about every uncomfortable detail of our lives, she looked me in the eye and said, Mam I believe your child has progressive selective mutism. We will start counseling next week. Tonight I’m having a hell of a time coming to terms with the fact that I may never hear my baby girl speak again.

Through the tears though I know that I serve a God who is in control. A God of mercy and love, and I know my baby girl is strong and can over come any anxiety. She may be a silent princess at the moment, but not for long. I will hear her sing again.


Hey! I guess if I’m gonna do this then I’d better introduce myself, but to do that I’d have to know who I am first… So who am I? Well my name is Melissa, but very few call me that. I have been a wife since December 18, 2002, but that’s not who I am. I am a mother of two beautiful children, but I’m more than that. I love to crochet , but yarn doesn’t complete me. I would give anything to be able to paint or sketch most days but that doesn’t draw the whole picture. I have been known to get lost in a good book, but that still doesn’t tell the whole story.

My husband, Scott, has Bipolar 1 Disorder, but that’s not who he is. My son, Jacob, has Aspergers, but he’s so much more. Daughter, Abigael, recently stopped talking, but even without her voice, she’s much more complex. You see everyone has a title, or a label, but that’s all they are, labels not ingredients. As a child of God, we need to learn how to separate the ingredients from the labels and really get to know who we are.

I’m hoping that this blog will help me to do just that, dig past the labels and look  at the ingredients and decide who I am. Along the way I hope to give others a bit of insight into not only my life but also the life of my family.  I’m far from an expert on Aspergers, Bipolar or Mutism but dealing with it twenty-four seven, I’ve come to know quite a bit about them all and am more than willing to share my knowledge with anyone who may need it.

Now what about my quirky title? LOL I know without a doubt I’m gonna catch quite a bit of grief for “Airing my dirty laundry” all over the internet. My response is… One man’s trash just may be another man’s treasure!

I hope you’ll come back often and follow along as I discover myself and my family…

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